u/hoarse_machine

Pooners are so dumb and scared and helpless
▲ 168 r/4tran4

Pooners are so dumb and scared and helpless

T scares me, I'm scared of bottom growth, I'm scared of losing my singing voice. Just wanted to let everyone know I'm shaking and terrified rn. Could that be T related? I'm scared of results I'm nowhere near, what does testosterone do, can anyone tells me what the sex hormone testosterone will do? Is there any way to find out what testosterone is? Is it scary? Am I allowed to be on testosterone? My mom said I'm not allowed to, but if I wait 5 years, is it okay (Im 23)? I've been a trans man for 12 years, is it time to start thinking about testosterone? I'm scared someone might view me as a man. I had a headache last week, could it be related to T? Does anyone know how to stop wearing makeup? Will my skin fall off? I'm scared of needles, I'm not going on T, any advice to be more masc? Is it normal to still have a constant period on T? My doctor said no more T so I've been off of it for 6 months :( I'm pre-everything, do the men I sleep with view me as a man? What do I do? Are men's clothes harmful? How do boxers work, where does my ermm downstairs~(heh, my boipussy) go? Just picked up my T vial from the pharmacy, does anyone know what to do with it? Does anyone know where the men's section is at the store?

I'm not confused about why people are this way, I just find it insane they don't have the thought to be somewhat ashamed of themselves. It's not even like actual women can acceptably act this timid and useless without it being pathetic. How does anyone act the way these people do. Can they not read? Do they not feel bad about how they are? Do they not feel bad? Not even a 'poons just need to man up' post, I'm a pathetic pooner too, but I know that. I'm still capable enough to look stupid shit up and figure it out. 'Why do they act like women with brain injuries?' 'Because they're women' ik ik. They're legit doubting on arr slash eff tee em that testosterone even stops periods. It's pointless to look, but even the diy subreddits are this bad. FTMMen is this bad. There's nowhere that isn't like this, trans men can't even enforce social sanctions like men do lmao.

u/hoarse_machine — 10 hours ago
▲ 76 r/4tran4

Every time I encounter this sub I start thinking I'm sincerely homophobic

Looking for something completely unrelated to reference in a schizoid theory post and this is the first result. Imagine topping a guy off Craigslist and he's telling ppl about the time he got pegged by a FTM who 'really did act like a guy' LMAO

u/hoarse_machine — 26 days ago

District, Tony Duvert (Translated by S. C. Delaney & Agnes Potier)

The rumbling: I saw the rotor blades above us, in the red mild night the helicopter flies over our heads, thousands of heads raise, see the bombs fall and burst out laughing, then dive into the glasses in which the bomb bits explode, gashing our thousands of faces from which the mud flows, the helicopter turns about its rotor, I threw my glass, it burst from a shard, falls, the sand swallows it up. The sand swallows the fire, which swallows the metal and the skulls, burns down the metals and burns away the colors, its eyes shut and mouth heavy, enormously open, which yawns and devours and falls asleep on the sand on the table for its digestion. I can’t tell if it’s day or night, the fires light up the night, they’re set on purpose, it’s others who do it on purpose. No one can be seen now, the table is sleek, my glass cracks, a warm night has fallen, from high, high above, over our heads—what heads? No one’s left, the ball of black heat has fallen, every time the sun is red a meteorite falls and one’s in darkness, the fire pours from it, a thick fire like motor oil pouring out onto our feet, no, it’s other bodies roasting and dancing beneath the meteorites, we're here in front of our drinks and we fiddle with our ice cubes that rise one by one in our glasses, in the manner that light knows, one by one, how to do. So what's there to fear, then, in a measly little drink?

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u/hoarse_machine — 1 month ago
▲ 293 r/4tran4

many of us are forgetting that trans "men" are "men" but not ACTUALLY men

wasnt sure if this ever made it here. Its one of my favorites i think about it all the time

u/hoarse_machine — 1 month ago

The Road, Cormac McCarthy

He got up and walked out to the road. The black shape of it running from dark to dark. Then a distant low rumble. Not thunder. You could feel it under your feet. A sound without cognate and so without description. Something imponderable shifting out there in the dark. The earth itself contracting with the cold. It did not come again. What time of year? What age the child? He walked out into the road and stood. The silence. The salitter drying from the earth. The mudstained shapes of flooded cities burned to the waterline. At a crossroads a ground set with dolmen stones where the spoken bones of oracles lay moldering. No sound but the wind. What will you say? A living man spoke these lines? He sharpened a quill with his small pen knife to scribe these things in sloe or lampblack? At some reckonable and entabled moment? He is coming to steal my eyes. To seal my mouth with dirt.

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u/hoarse_machine — 1 month ago