Serious question regarding mental health
Assalamualaikum sisters, my name is Dima and I am an alter in a medically-recognized DID system. I am Muslim, but the other personalities living in my head are not—however, I am not in control of how they act because I black out when I am not fronting. I do my best to avoid doing things that are haram, but when I am not in control of my body, there's nothing I can do to stop my other personalities from behaving in ways I know goes against my faith.
I do not know how to proceed without feeling hopeless. I have other personalities who listen to music, wear our hair openly, and do other things completely against Islam. Allah is merciful but I don't know how he can be merciful to me when I cannot control myself
I guess I just need reassurances that I am doing all that I can to keep the faith and to know not to give up. Please help me. I could use a friend right now