Today my dad slapped me for telling him that I didn't feel loved by him
Today, I (M19) got into an argument with my dad (M51) over something stupid I did, and yeah, I did something wrong, but he started yelling and didn't even say good morning to me as this was our first interaction. After that, he started yelling at me for not making my bed the right way. I tried to explain to him that I had not made my bed yet as it was dirty, and I needed my mum to give me the right sheets (she was working). Instead of letting me talk to him, he started shouting about how empathetic I needed to be when other people were complaining about me. This extended into a long and loud argument about him shouting at me things like "ur retarded" or "u live in your own reality". He also used the usual arguments of "ur vitimizing urself". Of course I shouted at him, but as usual I didn't call him names. I also told him I would no longer make lunch for him and my sister (F16 and recording some audios) as I was leaving to work myself and didn't want him to give me a ride. Between all this, he slapped me in the face and was aggressive to the point where he held my arm with both hands so I would listen to him. I was not aggressive physically to him, except when I closed my bedroom door so he wouldn't beat me. He ended up giving me a ride to work anyway as he took my stuff away from me and hid it. During the drive, he called me selfish for leaving my sister without lunch and that if I ever told him he didn't love me, he would beat me up again. I feel shitty and I know I wronged my family, but this sucks and things like this have happened between us since I can remember, even though I started to not tolerate it when I started 6th grade. I know I am not right, but I needed to let this out as my shift starts in 30 minutes, and since I work with the public, I need to not cry my eyes out. Any advice on how to deal with him?