Ended up with a job I hate
Short story but a lot of my time.
I was diagnosed with ADHD shortly after finishing university and started taking vyvanse immediately after that. I felt like I saw the light haha. Everything in my day was exciting and new and I had an immense lust for life that I had never experienced before.
I got into an apprenticeship that I thought was really exciting and promising despite it being hard work and long hours. I was working for a very well respected individual in my industry (art world).
1.5 years later and only now am I realising that I am literally just cheap labour for the guy and am being completely taken advantage of. The man hours are outrageous for the pay I receive. I have respiratory issues from inhaling dust from sanding. I have tennis elbow from polishing his artwork surfaces. Which I do for 8 hours straight some days. My finger joints are in constant pain. I practically make the guys work for him and still only receive an entry level hourly. He wasn’t even there today. He also openly admits to not knowing how to achieve certain finishes to the extent that I am able to. It’s embarrassing and immoral.
And I know that if I was unmedicated in the beginning phases I would have seen through the veil and let him find another unsuspecting victim. This shit is so not me. I just did the honourable thing and saw it through I guess. I regret it entirely. I’m resigning tomorrow.
Anyone else have experience with over commitments to this extent lmao? I’m not going to allow myself to dwell on the time and energy lost but I’m pretty pissed off that the substance clouded my agency for so long. Anyways, next chapter inbound.