Anyone else completely alone and worthless?
I find myself craving the experience of a relationship as I get older, especially as my connections with people have basically become non-existent at this point in time. I know I don't deserve that whatsoever, and would likely mess it all up if I was actually given a chance, but I can't help my primal need to want it so badly.
I genuinely don't have anyone, outside my parents, but even they are distancing themselves from me gradually. I go days without talking to anyone at this point. I struggle to get out of bed most mornings. I know I should get help, but I don't have the resources to do so, nor the energy.
Anyone else in a position like this in their life? I turned 27 last week, and it's really messing with my head more than past birthdays. I'm not sure why, but I suspect it's because being 30 now feels achievable, instead of some age I figured I'd never actually reach.
The single silver lining in all of this is at least I'm not attached to someone and dragging them down with me.