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Who has experience with this specific initial dose or around that? Enjoyable and controllable?
Planning to take 180mg at once since 120mg a year back ago didn't let me "break through" and let me feeling uneasy. A few years ago I had a really great roll, so I believe I need to cross a threshold dose.

Male, 25, 70kg, healthy, no meds, always test the substance.

I’m 25, male, 70 kg and live relatively healthily. This year I’d like to take MDMA again and wanted to get your assessment.

Previous experiences (pills/crystal were always tested, never had a hangover so far):

• Age 18: Low dose – pleasant, awake and social.
• Age 19: Half a high-dosed pill in the club – liked it extremely, lots of love and lightness.
• Ages 20–23: Always started carefully with rather low doses. Despite good setting and good mood, discomfort set in every time and the serotonin effect never really came.
• Last year: 120 mg pure MDMA weighed as initial dose. Effect was very weak and the discomfort returned. Redosing (2× ~100 mg) only intensified the discomfort – e.g. I could barely read anything on my phone anymore. Still manageable for me though.

My current plan:
This week take 180 mg all at once and see if it “ignites” this time. I think the initial dose is decisive.

What do you think – is this reasonable in my situation, and have you had similar experiences?
Do I need more, since people on the exact same dose are having a great time while I’m far from that?

Thanks community!