I don’t understand how I feel
Feeling lost. 14 months postpartum and confused about the state of my marriage. The hate I have for my MIL has deepened significantly in the past few months, exacerbated by more frequent visits (she and FIL currently live about 4.5hr drive away). My husband cried when they left today and I just felt numb. I don’t understand how he can love someone so much that I hate so much. I feel overwhelming anxiety, mostly associated with their visits, but also just in general. I have to live with having her in my life until she’s gone. Fighting with her just makes things worse. Has anyone lived through this and had it get better? Thinking of starting some sort of anti anxiety medication so I feel better and getting some therapy. Please, if you have improved your relationship with JNMil, tell me your secret, I am really suffering and need help!!!