u/icedamericaknow

You know what I think hurts the most? It's knowing what your love feels like... and knowing that one day, someone else will have it for the rest of their life.

Someone else will be the one you come home to. They'll hear your random thoughts, laugh at your jokes, see the little sides of you that I once got to know. They'll be loved by you on ordinary days, not just the special ones. They'll get the version of you that I always wished I could keep.

And the hardest part is... I know exactly how lucky they'll be.

I'm grateful I got to experience your love even for a little while. But sometimes I think that's what makes it hurt even more. I know what I'll never have again.

Kasi ang sakit na pakiramdam ko kaya kong maging kahit anomg gusto kong maging, maliban sa maging sa ‘yo. I can be whoever I want, except for being yours.

All these distractions, and I still miss you.

I tried everything. I kept myself busy, hoping something new would finally make me forget. But every new experience only seemed to lead me back to you.

I went on a five-day trip, only to miss you on the ride home. I took myself on a solo date, only to catch myself thinking how much you'd love the place too.

I did it all. But nothing changed the fact that every time I experience something beautiful, I wish I were experiencing it with you. Every memory I make feels incomplete because the first person I want to tell is still you.

Unfortunately, my heart refuses to forget you the way my mind is trying to.