This Time of My Life
Now, people are coming up to me and saying that I was supposed to win that award. They’re saying it wasn't a fair game. They’re saying he stole my award. And when I think about it, I can clearly see I did a very good job and put all my effort into this. Yet, at the last moment, another person’s name was announced, even though my name was on the nominated list. Someone else stepped onto the stage where I wanted to be. This award meant so much to me. I dreamed of this award for 2 years, so that I could make my parents proud on another level, especially after the sacrifices they made for me. I didn’t sleep for several days and sacrificed so much to put my absolute best work into this. In the end, they just thought someone other than me deserved that stage more. Am I sad? Yes I’m. Do I think I deserve it more? Yes I do. Maybe I don’t. Maybe my stubborn self confidence makes me think I deserved that award more than he did. And maybe I don’t have the capabilities to deserve this. Will I get a chance for this again? Never. But. But. But I will use all the billions of cells in my entire body and make damn sure I don’t ever fookin regret this for the rest of my life. Good luck to the final winner. The wound is fresh. I’m writing all this while the last night’s sleep is forcing my eyes to shut, yet I’m fully awake in my brain. I will start all this, once again, all over again, from today. Yes, I’m yapping about all this here. I don’t care even if people here don’t like it. After all, what’s the point of this sub if I can’t get what’s inside my chest out to my fellow people? Sorry for yapping here. Thanks for reading about this time of my life. May Allah replace what I lost with something far greater. Ameen.