i hate my body now
i don't know who to talk to about this in my real life because everyone thinks i'm overreacting & i feel so alone. a week ago i got a pretty big cover up on my butt cheeks (yes my butt) & it's a partial blackout piece. i hate it. i don't hate the design at all but i miss my bare butt cheeks. it looks too heavy compared to my other tattoos & i've thought of every way possible of fixing it but 5+yrs of unguarenteed removal really scares me. i'm a dancer & i feel like i've ruined my life. i really don't want to do this anymore. i'm too insecure to work so i can't make money. i don't even want to leave the house, i cry at least every hour. i feel so ugly & unlikable now & having to heal such a big piece on an intimate place while hating it being there is really taking a toll on me. i've had mental health problems in the past but i've never been this bad in my entire life. i don't know what to do i just want to take the easy way out. this feels impossible. nothing i do can distract me from this. i'm ruining my relationship because all i can do is cry, who would want to be with that?? & who would've thought walking into that shop would lead to this.. i really really don't want to be here anymore i'm at a complete loss
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i loved it 100% when i got it i felt so pretty, why do i feel like this???
also if ur going through something similar feel free to message me so we can support each other