u/idonevenknowtbh

I'm curious

What I mean by that is that, you don't get much physical symptoms like fast heartbeat, sweating, trembling and others. But rather, you experience negative thoughts like "they must be judging me, i look stupid, etc". Also, rumination, overanalyzing interactions afteerwards. The physical symptoms might happen but not as strong and not constant.

Or when someone reminds you. That's why I dont like to recall memories, even if it is a good one, others find a way to mention that embarrassing or stupid thing you did once. It makes me feel so bad that I want to disappear. It's not just embarrassment like for others, it's so deep that you can feel in your body. Can anyone relate?

Knowing that there are people who share the same experiences, same pain as me makes me feel less alone. In real life, nobody understands me and people make me feel less "normal" for my anxious behavior, quietness and awkwardness even though it is not in my control at all. Thank you guys for being here and sharing your experiences. It really helps me feel better and understood. I think a lot of people feel the same way. And know that you're not alone. I love you all💗💗

We always try to look perfect for others, hide ourselves, our mistakes and with that, without realizing, we hide our natural behavior. We don't act freely like other people, we talk little because we are afraid of saying the wrong thing, we try to not get everyone's attention, we don't sing and dance freely like others do. Other people show their true personality and true self becuase they're not performing, they're not insecure about themselves, that's why they don't have social anxiety and don't engage in safe behavior.

And what I realized is that, we can never be perfect. We are humans. Nobody is perfect. When you look at other people, you can see their flaws, but it doesn't make them anxious around others. Only "we" are afraid. We need to accept our flaws and be ourselves. We need to be confident even with our insecurities and mistakes. The world doesn't reward shyness. The world only rewards confident people. The world doesn't care about your social anxiety. You HAVE TO BE CONFIDENT!! Accept yourself!

It is especially hard to manage it while living in uzbek family because you need to have a social life and meet with a lot of relatives regularly. I have never met anyone who has social anxiety, so I'm wondering if anyone else feel that way🥲

When i was preparing for university entrance exams, I had a kind of structure and big goals. I was always productive and hard-working. As a result of studying alot, i got accepted to university and now I'm feeling lost. Like I have no goals, I don't know what to do, also, questioning whether I chose the right major. I'm not ambitious as I used to be. I don't want to do anything. I guess I was used to the structure of school when we just had to go to school and attend courses, but now as I'm free, I am feeling lost. I don't feel ready for anything. Does anyone else feel that way?

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I'm curious as to why is it their business?