u/idontknoww119

pls pray for me to get accepted into the university and major I want pls

when I was in g7 I started having a crush on a guy (older than me) I really liked the way he looked how he carried himself (also one of my siblings was w him in the same class) so I started liking him every year I would say smth would happen between us we will somehow talk etc but we never spoke to each other and we didn’t get to know each other

3 years ago he graduated & travelled to study abroad for uni & that shocked me I was so sad I felt like it will be harder to make a connection with him since he’s in another country now and he’s in college not in hs anymore few months after his travel I got an idea to request him on ig I kept waiting nth happened then I started every single for many many times a day to keep clicking the follow and then unfollow button until he accepts I did that for 4 months and in Dec that year he blocked me I kept using different apps and accounts to follow him for the next months of last year he didn’t accept the last time I tried he removed me and followed a girl and then I found out that he had a gf this whole time so I didn’t do anything from that day until today. But my problem is I keep thinking of him, dreaming of him, waiting for him, I keep thinking about when will we get a chance to know each other I feel like everything is related to him its been years since this started and im in uni now but im still the same I js can’t leave him I feel like my whole life stopped im js thinking of him no matter what im doing or where im going im genuinely so tired and exhausted idk what to do I tried everything but I js cant stop thinking of him ..