7 months in and it feels worse
My kid (19) passed away suddenly on Nov. 24. I am still numb. My kid was my best friend and I am very much struggling to adjust to my new reality. I go through the motions of my daily life, try to be present for my partner and her son (18) but in the quiet moments, especially when I try to sleep, that day replays in my head over and over again. Therapy doesn’t seem to help. It’s not like this is something that I can work through. While I am still taking care of myself and participating in my life I really have lost most of the joy and happiness that kept me going. I miss my kid all day every day, I hate that this is what my life has become. Sorry for the long post from somebody who just joined l but I don’t really have an outlet of people who know exactly how I’m feeling.