Feeling Worthless
I came here to write this because not many people understand how bad a gambling addiction can be. I'm happy to say that I officially deleted my sports betting app today. I have relapsed multiple times though, but I'm trying to stay strong. It's so hard to break the cycle when your bank account is in a negative balance. I feel like if I could just get ahead of my finances, then I wouldn't feel the "need" to gamble. I feel like I do it out of desperation. Due to gambling, my bank account is -$1000. My paycheck then comes in and puts the account to a zero balance. Then my bills come out and my account goes back to -$1000. It's fu*king embarrassing that I can't even go to the store to buy groceries. I just needed to vent to people who may understand what I am going through.