u/ilicelic

Hi, I 17F am getting an endoscopy soon for burning and gnawing pain in my stomach, pills and some foods feeling like they get stuck in my esophogus or scratched it, and other acid-reflux related symptoms. My doctor mentioned that they will take biopsies to look for things such as allergy cells. I'm just curious about how the allergy cells could cause symptoms and what it would signify if they were present. I am not asking for medical advice. I am just curious about the allergy cells and I'm having trouble finding out about it online.

I 17F am still in high school but I switched to an online school where I don't even have to turn my camera on. I am currently up late crying about everything just from recalling it and I wanted to share it somewhere. I'm not sure if this is bullying or just teasing but I'll list some things.

(To preface, I mention periods and ibs below so if you think that's gross here's a warning)

Standing in the school bathroom adjusting my hair and a few girls very clearly said I was so ugly and looked like a rat. I've never seen them before that.

Walking into the bathroom and a group of girls with a guy said something like "hello fine shyt" but not in a good way they were laughing and making fun of me. I tried so hard to look cute that day and I got a genuine compliment from an acquaintance about my outfit but I guess I just look like a rat.

My period started and I had a heavy flow so if someone bent down near my legs they might smell blood. The girl next to me told the guy next to her that I stunk and pointed to the area around my legs saying all around it stunk. This was just one of the times that she would insult me loud enough for me to hear but would treat me like I was nothing. My teacher kind of set me up for this because she sat the two "popular" girls on each side of me and they would constantly pretend like I was not there or in their way.

I have ibs so sometimes I have to go to the bathroom at school and I heard girls planning to throw something at me and a paper towel roll or something like that was thrown into the stall I was in. I nearly got a tardy waiting for them to leave so I wouldn't be recognized.

One of the girls I used to be close friends with had the same name as me and she would laugh at me or say things that sounded like she was disgusted by my existence when my name was called for attendance. Another girl who I was kind of friends with before would say rude things while we were friends and after all my friends stopped talking to me besides one who stayed an acquaintance because she was a really nice person (one other girl wasn't ever mean to me afterwards so I don't dislike her at all I think she deserves better friends than me anyways we just never spoke again) she started going out of her way to say rude things about me while sitting right behind me like for example she said that I smelled and stuff and one time I had to work on something in class with her so she sat on the very edge of her seat far away from me and looked at me like I was disgusting. The other people I used to be friends with would just give me weird looks and a few times I would be walking with the friend that stayed an acquaintance and my previous "best" friend came and walked next to my acquaintance and acted like I just completely didn't exist. I think I was an annoying friend for sure and probably embarrassing too but I don't know why I had to be treated like that.

People kept saying that I smelled not directly to my face but either loud enough for me to hear or by saying "something smells funny over here". I don't understand this because maybe I would be gassy sometimes because school stressed me out so bad my ibs was constantly flaring but I would scrub myself clean until my skin was sore but it never stopped. I always worse deodorant too so I'm not sure what was happening and I've been out of public school since February but I am terrified to leave my house in fear that I smell.

I got As in my ap class but I would never have a partner or group and my teacher gave us group work everyday. I had to do double or quadruple the work and my teacher knew this since its seen in the submission which he would check to make sure everyone contributed but I never once received help or acknowledgement. One time we were doing a small debate and I tried to say something after raising my hand but I got so nervous I was trembling and I did really bad and my teacher gave me a weird look so some kids started talking badly about me saying even the teacher didn't like me. It was always right behind me but not to my face, like I was nothing and didn't deserve any respect.

I think this was more like harassment, I wore an outfit that I didn't know accentuated certain parts of my figure so a guy asked me to do a project with him and I was scared to say no since I'm a people pleaser and he kept talking about relationships and was kind of asking me if I was open to anything inappropriate in a weird way. I decided to just ween more into a weird quiet kid stereotype that people talked bad about me for so I just worked hard on the project and barley talked only if I was spoken to and eventually he left me alone and luckily this nice senior girl (I was a sophomore at the time, like 15-16) started talking to me around that time so I moved away from him and started sitting with her. But I heard his friends refer to me as "his *ss". I got rid of any clothes that were tight at all or cropped at all and I started only wearing super baggy clothes even now since I'm so scared of this happening again. And I was only wearing a slightly tight full coverage long-sleeved shirt and straight jeans.

Just wanted to vent I guess. Too embarrassed to tell anyone I know.

Hi, I am planning to put the Illit members into tomadachi life. I am looking for suggestions of which style I should use for each member. I preferably want a look from a mv but other stuff is fine! What do you think are good options? Also knowing what member you think suits each era the best would help.