Hinahanap na ako sa kapilya for deliberation raw dahil matagal na akong hindi dumadalo.
Huling samba ko na noong last na Banal na Hapunan. Prior to that, lagi naman na akong nasa MS. Due to being in college, at hindi ako nagpa-transfer, hindi na rin ako nakakadalo. Initially the plan was to transfer out then abandon going to service altogether but I was too busy with moving and coursework kaya hindi ko na na-process. Honestly, hindi na ako masyadong kinakabahan dahil kayang-kaya ko naman silang iwasan dahil may dorm ako a few hours away from home. Also, my brother have done the trick of transferring out and as far as we both know, tiwalag na siya. Ako lang ang pinagsabihan niya nito. He's employed now so I doubt na kaya nilang pastulin pa si kuya into submission. But I'm still a freshman and my parents, beyond their obsession with this religion, are still really great parents. I'm also close with my family and I'm scared how this will turn out dahil gusto ni nanay na ayusin namin ang pagsamba so we can get out of the MS line-up. Kahit pilit kong lumayo sa lahat ng gusto nila, I hate that these worries still live in the back of my head. Ba't ba kasi ako naging handog, tangina.