Muslim woman, 25, struggling with sexual urges....what should I do?
I’m a 25-year-old Muslim woman, but I’m not very religious and I don’t pray regularly etc. Im also a virgin and have never had sex.
Lately, I’ve been struggling a lot with sexual urges. I masturbate fairly often because I’m constantly horny, and whenever I see a man, I immediately start thinking about sex. It doesn’t even matter much what he looks like or whether he’s around my age.
At the same time, I’m scared of having sex before marriage because I’m afraid of committing a major sin and ending up in Hell. Im also reallly unattractive and have a boring personality and don’t think I’m good enough to get a boyfriend or husband.
I really want to experience intimacy and physical closeness with a man, but I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with these feelings. I’ve also wondered whether masturbation with a dildo would be considered halal in this situation because I wanna see how it feels you know?
Has anyone else, especially Muslim women, struggled with something similar? What would you do in my situation?