Just existing?
I've always felt like I have given up on life. I'm just here existing doing what people normally do (studying, getting a job, buying a house, etc) because it's in a way the stages of life. Now I'm not saying I am suicidal. I have a phobia of death, but I just like I have no passion or goals in life, especially after I've fulfilled the one goal that I've been starving to accomplish for years that it was unhealthy at some point. It's more like "what do I do now?". One thing I truly believe is that maybe I was supposed to die sometime in the past (Accident, sickness, etc), but I somehow avoided that, and therefore I'm lifeless in a way if that makes sense. That I'm not supposed to be here. I don't know if anybody feels this way, but I hope it makes sense.