Dealing with becoming disabled
Hello everyone! Im fairly new to stoicism and have only read a little of Discourses and Selected Writings and the Enchiridion by Epictetus so I feel like Im starting to learn the basics but have a lot of trouble applying it to my own life. However I recently have become disabled and feel like I need stoicism or some form or mental practice/strengthening to get through this.
Background. Just under 2 years ago I was crushed in a forklift accident. At first the doctors had me on meds that helped with the chronic pain from the accident and I was able to keep working. But the pain keeps worsening and the doctors have done all they can do (trust me they have) making it incredibly hard to walk, sometimes I cant.
So now im facing the fact that I am officially disabled and Im supposed to return to work in 2 weeks but my doctors will not realese me for work, as they shouldnt, working is literally destroying my body.
Im struggling with so many aspects of this from not being able to earn an income anymore, to needing far more help from everyone around me just to survive, and difficulty still feeling valuable to the world and not just like a big burden.
Is there any stoic concepts that I could focus on that help more with this part of life or can help me process what im going through? What would be the best readings to look into and what strategies might help me apply stoicism to my life and my situation? I feel very lost right now.