No one gets it
Extremely hard to go through the worst you ever ever gone through, and you've always gone through everything alone and silent but now you finally talk. And at first you are listened to and supported (which I'm grateful for bc some of yall don't even have that -- the person who listens, or that person being empathetic). But now you're too much and they don't wanna hear it anymore and go to therapy except you don't have the money for it and even the money you did spend on it, you ask yourself if it was truly beneficial. Because then why do I feel worse now ? Anyway so now people have made it clear I'm annoying and a burden and heavy to deal with but then it's still "noo don't kys" like cut the crap you do not care like that. Looks like I need to go back to "dealing alone" but I told myself (as a teen), that if I ever got depressed like that again, I'd kms. Looks like it's gonna be time