I'm tired
Does anyone else's mom try to stir up shit when things are calm? It's happened so many times now that it has to be a pattern. It's like every 6 months she wants to trigger me into losing my shit and unfortunately I take the bait every time. Today for example, she wakes up and is asking for me to help pay for the electricity bill, I've helped before but I told her right now I'm not sure cause I just paid for the car, our phone, our Internet. She didn't take too kind to that and went to her default mode of "well you can just move out then!" Trust me, if I could I would. I unfortunately don't make enough at my job and there's no way I could get a place on my own. I help pay other bills but in her mind, I don't help her with anything even though I also do all the housework and yardwork. She got fired from another job last September and since then she vowed she wasn't going to return to work and will retire. She legit just sits on her ass all day and plays Candy Crush but here I am with a full time job and a side hustle that is sometimes fruitful. She complains her retirement isn't enough but no one told her to retire! I'm venting but oh my god I wish I was in a better situation where I could leave her and never look back. At this point I'm hoping the cigarettes and sitting on her ass speeds up the inevitable process cause maybe that's when I'll finally start being able to live.