u/isamariberger

Hello, I got a confirmation email for my internship applications, in one I am invited to take the online interview and the games, in an other I only got an invitation for the interview. I'm just wondering if this wasn't a bug and the second mail was an invitation for the same internship that required to do the video and games as it mentioned I'll receive a link for the interview later. Should I contact someone?

Hello! I have applied to a couple of NATO internships and just got the mail back for the video interview and games! I really don't know what to expect from there on or if it's even a good sign that I got this far and would really appreciate any tip you could give me I really want to do this right!

I'd very much appreciate any sharing of experience here because, I have tried different videos so it's not a specific one that doesn't suit me but it seems positive affirmations in general.
I don't have nightmares with all types, for example release toxic anger or study confidence don't do anything to me. But some others, even simple ones like I am loved I am safe, no matter who makes them have resulted in absolutely horrific nightmares, things I'd never have ever imagined (I'm not even prone to intrusive thought) and before I hardly ever had nightmares.

It's hard to explain but all these dreams seem to stem from the same place, if I think of the dreams I had before positive affirmations, it seems they all had a specific mood, feel, i also experienced them vividly, these dreams are more like me watching a movie unfold (should I be part of them or not) and it's like they belong to the same genre so to speak.

It's very strange and I don't know if this is purge but, it's almost like something alien to me is at work there, and I don't understand how images that are deeply disturbing and horrifying suddenly pop up in my mind, once again things I'd have been traumatized by if I even showed them in video, I'm worried and scared and don't know what to do. I don't want to stagnate, I want to get better but it almost makes me feel like all this trauma I had the last years poisoned my soul and I'm being forced to see what I denied, but I'm not feeling healed just worst on the morning.

I have been battling illness for 5 years and am now 34, I am devastated that I now passed the cut-off and am looking for ways to apply but all jobs apart from the YPP seem to be targeted at experienced professionals, same goes for the UN. Is there anything I could do? Thank you for your help.