Anyone else tired of desiring romantic attention but never having it work out 😭
I'm just ! So ! Tired ! And ! I ! Feel ! INSANE 👹
Grew up convincing myself i was beyonddd sillllyy things like love bc im avoidant as hell now im 25 and ive never dated but ! I kinda wanna feel idk liked and i wanna know what the comfort of having a relationship is like. And it just. Never works out bc I fear every man puts me off in two days max bc I always clock some sense of egotism or internal misogyny or just blatant lack of empathy or respect which just. Puts me off so bad.
To top it off I've got my own attachment issues I'm sooo quick to overthink and run the other way when I really want someone to make me feel secure but I cant trust them enough do it 😭😭
PLUS theres the societal reinforcement where its like everyone i know my age has dated at least once and while ofc I get that everyones pace of life is different and im completely fine, I cant help but feel out of place/FOMO bc hey why dont I get to feel loved/desired for a change :((
Im not victimising myself bc I really do think I have a lot of love for myself and I enjoy spending my life by myself, but I've just lately been feeling this void/need and the more I think about it the more it feels like theres no real solution to this than accept that this is out of my hands - even if its bringing on a lot of disappointment rn :(
Anyone else feel this and wanna vent? Pls doooo lets share our sorrows lmao