I miss who I was off of my meds
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t plan on stopping them long term. I started them because of severe OCD and BPD but anything is better than experiencing the level of anxiety, anger and depression I had. But honestly I missed a few days worth of meds. I lost all motivation and interest in everything and I feel like I’m stuck on auto pilot, even when I was taking them consistently. No med has ever helped with my anxiety the way pristiq has. I just miss my personality. I feel like I have less of a personality now than I did before. I feel like an emotionally flat robot but who cries over everything. 🥲 I used to be so confident in myself, I used to be strong, I wouldn’t be afraid to speak my mind even if it meant hurting someone’s feelings. I had such strong emotions, I was definitely a character. And it’s honestly for the best my emotions aren’t as intense but… sighhhhhh.
Also, yes I talked with my psychiatrist about this. She ended up upping my dose. She believes because I experienced something traumatic around this time of year years ago that my brain subconsciously associates this time of year with bad emotions. Does anyone have any advice? 💔