F.O since May no plan talking to her anymore. Long post ahead. I just want to take this off in my chest.
Hi, (22 F). Had a friend for almost 2 years on a BPO industry. She's 2 years older than me. She's also bisexual and currently dating a lesbian. We're soooo inseparable.i felt like she's my twin flame. Even sometimes she throw a back handed compliment at me I don't mind it.
Something happened that made me just cut her off completely. On May, she got hospitalized again due to her having lopus. After me being single for almost a year, I dated a foreign guy but she never really met my bf. I just told her what he looked like and showed her Pics of us. When she was in the hospital, it was when my bf came to visit me in my country. I thought that it's a good thing cause she'll finally meet him cause I really treat her like a best friend forever thing. When we visit her, we first saw her mom (I'm close to her parents). I had my bf say hi to her. Now when she went back after some test, she was like stunned. So me as a girl, I'm like super happy and introduced him to her and her gf.
We were like laughing cause I'm trying to lift her spirit cause I could see that she's sad about her having lopus. So I'm really trying to support her emotional l, mentally cause I truly love her. But when she was like asking my bf it was when like my instinct kicked in.
Also, she's like trying to humiliate me. I have this crazy past when I was a kid that I did and it was like super embarrassingly that I haven't told my bf cause I like saving that for a nice time where we both be laughing so hard. She then tries to open it up to my bf which I don't have a choice but so just say it cause my bf was like curious. She also showed my bf my pictures when I was soooo fucking ugly and so thin( for me I'm so ugly on that era) but she still proceeded to show it even if I told her that like no don't show it.
Her: what's your nationality?
Him: My parents are both french but we live in UK
Her: oh wow so you know how to speak french
Him: of course
She then paused then me and my bf were like talking about what we're gonna eat tomorrow.
Her: (Stared at my boyfriend) You know the first think I love is British and the second thing I love is french.
Him: 👀 like he's dead silent then he looked at me
Me: oh okay congrats (sarcastic)
She said it but at that moment her face and her voice kinda sound like she's trying to flirt a little bit. As a woman, we have a very high instinct and we understand what's going on.
We went home then I tried not to open up what happened to my bf cause I don't want to think like something bad about my bff. But after 3 days that certain situation, keeps popping up on my mind. Every time I think about it, I just feel the ick. Like something's wrong. I never ever think bad about her and that was the first time.. That night, I opened up to my bf about that conversation and he said that he felt uncomfortable about how she said and the timing saying she love British and french. Like girl? Yeah he told me he feels something off Abt her. Then he asked me, if she ever been like that with my previous RS cause she's my bff. Then I realized, whenever I tried to date someone, she's the first person i ran and tell her Abt this stuff but she always tell me that "oh he might leave u be careful". Then after that realization, one after another, she actually like say bad things to me like "you're ugly, you're flat, fix your hair, your eye bags are so big u looked like this..."
It was never really a friendship. I just realized, she's in competition with me. I was just naive. Part of me is still brokenhearted for losing a best friend. But, I'm glad I cut her off.
Yes, I didn't confront her. That's always my rule Abt friendship, also feel like even if I confront her I knew deep inside of me I could never trust her again.