Anyone else’s baby’s hernia sound like it’s full of liquid when you very gently push down??? Also it seems like some days it’s protruding more than the previous one. Also sometimes when my baby is drinking, I see fluid or something flow through it- almost like a small moving shadow inside. I’m taking baby to peds soon but I just wanted to see if anyone else has experienced this.
Sorry if none of this makes sense
For context,
I grew up in a household where my mom was extremely emotional and unstable and my dad was always working. I was my dad’s favorite growing up, my mom’s least favorite. She oftentimes would get jealous and anytime my dad was home she would lock him and her in the bedroom and we were banned from every coming in. There’s so much more. I don’t even want to go down that rabbit hole..
I was the middle child, the ghost child, her “calm and good child”. Never got shown any affection, had to tend to myself, had to witness all of my other siblings get love and care.
Now that im pregnant with the first grandchild, she all of a sudden is EXTRA affectionate. She apparently wants to come stay with my for 6 months to “help” (she’s obese and cannot take more than 10 steps without being out of breath, is a single mom to a 5 year old daughter and door dashes as a living- she’s a hoarder, she doesn’t clean, and has no hygiene) the least qualified person in the world to help a new mom, let alone someone that needed you decades ago. She hasn’t mentioned the wanting to stay with me part (my older sister told me her plans) so im waiting for her to mention it but anytime I call my little sister she snatches the phone and starts saying oh my god I can’t wait to see my little baby; my baby is having a baby; I feel like im missing out on my baby’s first pregnancy; show me your bump!!; I need more ultrasound photos!; I should be there, im your mom.
She came for my baby shower and kept trying to hug me and touch my belly and it made me sick to my stomach.
Anytime she asks about my pregnancy my BP goes up and I get nauseous.
Not too long ago she texted in a family group chat
“When I realized we were in July I was like OMG my baby is gonna be here soon. We’ll have 2 birthdays and then a baby”
I then replied “not your baby, you have a thousand” (she has 6 kids)
Her response: “it is my baby too🥰”
I’m due in a month or less. How the f am I supposed to deal with this. I’ve already cut her off before and only let her back in to be there for my little sister who has no father… I don’t want her to ever touch or see a photo of my child, it fills me with so much disgust I can’t even explain it. But I also feel guilty because I can see she’s trying now- however, it feels too late.
Is this just a result of pregnancy hormones? Will I get over it or will it just get worse? I have a feeling it’ll get worse.
I have absolutely no attachment or love in my heart for my mother and it makes me feel like a really bad person. I try so hard to see her as one should see their mom and I LITERALLY CANT.
Anyone go through anything similar? And what did you do?