100lbs down but still so much left...
I have about 218lbs total to lose. It's a lot. June 2025 I was 348 at my highest weight. Lost 20lbs just cutting out soda, then got on MJ late August. So now I'm 245lbs and down 100lbs in about a year, technically speaking. But it doesn't really feel like it? I know I'm making good progress, but I feel kind of tired, looking at the numbers.
To get to 130lbs, it's another year of hard work in my future. And I'm having such trouble even conceptualizing what that is going to be like. I have pure confidence I can do it because the medicine will pick up any slack I leave. But what is that going to be like? Is it really possible for me to achieve this goal? The last time I was under 200lbs, I must have been younger than 15 years old. I'm 27 now.
So... yeah. I'm tired and feel like I'm still not doing good enough. Which isn't a bad thing, for motivation. But I guess the goal is getting a little muddy. I'm not even stalled. This week has been good, I've been more active these past couple months, but I feel conflicted. I guess I could use some encouragement, but I also don't want to be praised like I'm done. I keep telling people in my life I've lost less than I have, too. Like I don't want to be too proud before I finish, while feeling a bit tired and demotivated at the same time, and uncertain what the future holds.
Weight loss is more complicated than I anticipated it being.