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I know it's not that serious or deep, but it keeps bothering me and I feel I don't know how to communicate it.

I post 1 story per month, usually even less. We usually talk a lot about sports, nutrition (we are all millennials), and my friends do mostly running. The only guy in the group is a very good runner and I feel the girls in the group orbit a lot about his scores. We all have Strava and I always like their content.

Now, they know bouldering is my passion, but they never ask questions about it, which I thought was okay because they don't know about it. But when I do post climb vidéos, it's also radio silence. I am the kind of person that easily likes Instagram content, especially when it involves hobbies, like I have a friend that posts acting reels in Spanish and I always like it because I know she gives her heart to it.

The guy friend also recently "joked" that I was showing off my climbing skills when we were in a playground activity and I went up easily. I told him I just really enjoyed it and in the same joking tone, told him not to be jealous.

Am I overreacting? I come from a background where feeling invisible and unappreciated is a trigger for me; I live far from my family and we are somehow estranged because of it.

We have a good group relationship otherwise, I feel I can be myself around them.

I am a woman in my early thirties, started at 30, been climbing for around 3 years.

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I love it so much. I am usually going around twice per week, can be one, can be three times. There hasn't been a time where I wasn't excited to go to the gym, there hasn't been any time where I leave and I am sad or stressed. There hasn't been any time where I am there and I am thinking about anything else except the routes and boulders. Yes I have had disappointing sessions but I know it's part of the game and always know I have made progress in some boulders.

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I love how my body has changed, how strong I become and how my shoulders and back look. I love getting compliments from strangers and even colleagues asking me what sport I do to become so muscular.

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I love how I can trust my feet and arms, I love my body moving through space against gravity, I love pushing on my legs, I love pulling up and locking a position, I love pushing through crimps and I love dynoing and falling.

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And if you think I am writing this while being an objectively good climber, you are wrong. I have V3 level and I am very proud.

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I have found happiness (and healing) in the gym that I haven't found in other places, and sometimes I feel that whatever happens in my life, I would have this passion keeping me alive. All I hope is to be able to do it the longest possible.

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I write this because it's difficult to explain to my friends and family this feeling, and some people believe I am being showy or bragging about it. Lol. My closest friends are into running and it can't be compared in my opinion, but I respect their hobby. I wish they could see the passion I have for mine.

As a female identifying individual that is queer, how do you feel your presence differs from a self identifying straight woman?

Hey all

This post is just to vent and express my feelings!

I am 33F, I feel so proud of myself for the things I have accomplished so far, without much emotional support from anyone. I am an attending doctor, I am making mid six figures a year and I am so proud being in this unexpected financial position, I was always the quiet and outsider member of the family that no one would have bet on. I feel so blessed about that.

I am doing therapy and I feel it's actually working, I can see myself spotting bad behaviors around me and be able to call them out, I feel confident (the majority of the times) in my body and like the way I look, I started taking work out seriously and my body changed, people in my life comment my evolution and ask for advise (=the secret, bouldering, weight lifting and cycling!). I am still working on my anxious attachment and other family issues that I have, but I am on my way to get there.

I am funny and goofy, I show everyone around me the respect they deserve, I don't feel the need to be the center of attention, I tolerate loneliness, and I am also a good house keeper and cook!

So, I can't wait to meet my future partner and shower them with attention and love, I really feel I have so much to give, I feel I can give them everything they want out of their life, as long as they let me sleep at 22h hahaha! And if this feels like bragging, I promise it's real, I feel it's real.

Anyway, I am in a good mood. I wish everyone a good day, and may a love of the dimensions of my wishes fall on me!