Complete abstinence
I’ve been in and out of NA for the last 4 years. I like attending meetings, I like the friends I’ve made, I love the higher power and spirituality.
The thing I don’t love, is complete abstinence. I truly feel like I can have a glass of wine every once in a while and not go into oblivion and use like I did in my worst days. I truly do not believe I have a problem with alcohol.
We like to say “take what you like but leave the rest” but I feel like a fraud for feeling this way. And attending meetings anyways. I love the friendship. Idk. Just struggling with this. And if this program is still the best way for me in my life right now.
Does it have to be all or nothing?