Husband makes me feel special even when I doubt myself.
Assalamu alaikum.
In short (pun intended) I'm 5’1, and definitely chubby. Soft belly that never goes flat, double chin in every photo no matter the angle :/. Most days I catch myself in the mirror and just think ugh, could be slimmer. Clothes feel tight, I’m pulling at my abaya wondering if my husband looks at me and feels turned off sometimes. He's 6ft2 and looks handsome masha Allah. Life is fine alhamdulillah, but yeah those insecure days hit hard.
He always pulls me out of it though. Like This morning I was grumbling about my round face again. He just hugged me from behind, put his chin on my shoulder and said, “This is what I love coming home to. Stop hiding yourself from me.” He tells me straight up that my soft parts make him feel comfortable, like home. Calls my belly his pillow (I tell him stop calling it a pillow! But secretly love it) and jokes the double chin means more to kiss. Sounds cheesy but he says it so casually like it’s normal. He doesn’t keep it private either. Last week at his family’s house when they were all going on about some cousin’s weight loss and how she over did it and became underweight (according to their standards which I hate), he put his hand on my leg and said “Nah I’m happy with my wife just like this, she’s perfect for me, I wouldn’t change her.” Right in front of everyone. I wanted to hide under the table from embarrassment because it was drama like cheesy lol, but it also made me feel so good!
Even when we’re intimate, he makes me feel so wanted. Like actually desired, even on the days I feel gross in my own skin. Him showing me he really likes me as I am and is constantly thinking of me and how I would look when he arrives home. He even asks me to send him pictures of me trying my outfits because he says he loves when I show myself to him in nice fits. He does random sweet stuff too like brings my favorite snack or flowers for no reason, leaves little notes like “Those earrings on you look stunning!” in my bag or under my pillow. Simple stuff but it gets me every time.
I’m not some perfect wife. I get moody and I slack on things, but he still treats me like I’m his prize. Makes me feel like a princess even when I don’t feel it. Sisters if you’re chubby or insecure about your body like me, just know not all guys are the same. Mine chose me and keeps choosing me every day. I’m really thankful to Allah for him.