I hate the fact that I probably won't be able to even try to pursue any of my dreams
I just can't take it anymore. I'm constantly thinking about all the academic opportunities I could have, or opportunities in sports or music etc...
Like, Im 14 yr old. I have my whole life ahead of me. I'm lucky af that I'm smart and have great grades at school and I'm also really good and passionate about sports and music.
I can't believe that because I'm forced to be a part of a religion I don't care about or believe, I will be obligated to not go into university or higher education, Im prohibited from joining any sports clubs, and the only thing that I'm actually free to do is music, and even then: I'm blocked from posting my music online. I have to do it in a secret account of mine😭
I just wonder how many talents were wasted because of the religion. I just think "what if" so many times, I'm scared and anxious for my future.
Don't get me wrong, I love my parents and everything they've done for me, but they are also trapped in this thing, the difference is that they didn't realize it yet