Need some hope :)
I don’t really know how to say this, but things have been hard lately. Every day feels a little heavier, yet I know it doesn’t even come close to what my mom has been going through since she was diagnosed with bone cancer secondary to breast cancer.
While everything has been emotionally, physically and financially draining, seeing her in so much pain is the hardest part. There are nights when I cry without anyone knowing, asking God to give her strength and praying that she’ll get better. I can’t imagine my life without my mom. No child ever wants to think about losing a parent, but it’s difficult to stop my mind from wandering to places I don’t want it to go.
I don’t usually share personal things online, and I rarely talk about what I’m feeling. The truth is, I don’t really have anyone to open up to, so I’m writing this instead.
As scared as I am, I still choose to hold on to hope. Deep down, I believe she’ll get through this. I believe she’ll overcome everything that’s in front of her, and I know I have to stay strong for her just as she’s always been strong for me.
To anyone who is fighting cancer, or watching someone they love fight it, I’m praying for you too. This kind of battle can feel incredibly lonely, but none of us are truly alone. Even on the days when fear is louder than hope, I’m choosing to believe that better days are still ahead.