Just feeling angry at diet culture
I've been on Zepbound for almost four months mostly for IWL and after a lifetime of yo-yo dieting it's been a pretty slow start but it is definitely working and I'm just feeling a lot of anger toward diet culture in general. I'm eating so, SO much less than before (spot tracking to make sure I'm still getting a healthy floor of calories), when I was already eating what felt like the absolute minimum amount I needed to not be starving all the time, and I'm still losing less than .5% of my starting weight per week. Which is all fine, it's just thinking about the idea that diet culture was expecting me to eat this little without medication is making me so mad. The idea that I was eating more than this because I couldn't control myself or I didn't realize how much I was eating and not because I was FUCKING HUNGRY. I've even realized that "feeling hungry" does not mean the same thing for everyone and that is also making me mad. My partner only knows he has to eat when he feels tired and dizzy and realizes it's been a day since his last meal, he had no idea what I was talking about when I described what has been my experience of hunger my whole life until Zepbound (gnawing, aching, growling stomach pains every few hours that cannot be ignored). The idea that I was supposed to count up to my daily calorie allowance and then just feel like that and do nothing about it and live my life like that. The idea that there are other people on this very medication who think I should be able to stop the med and keep eating this way because I'll have "learned good habits".
Sorry this is a straight up barely coherent rant but yeah, just feeling a lot of anger.