u/justaboringgirlll

Did you know at a young age that something was different or were you further in life when it finally clicked? Was it something you happily accepted once you figured it out or were you more neutral towards it? Did anyone try denying that they were asexual because they didn’t want to be seen as ‘broken’ or ‘weird’ and did it make anyone feel helpless that a future romantic relationship may be impossible due to how everyone conflates romance with sex? Are you at peace with yourself and living happily now or do you still have days where you brood about it?

I made a vent post a few days ago and wasn’t fully honest. Y’all. I’m being dead ass. I’m not doing well. I am tired of feeling like a freak. I feel like something is inherently wrong with me for not desiring sex/being apathetic towards it. Allos can give it so freely and without any problems (if it’s in a safe and consensual way) and then there is me. An abhorrent turd. The shitty thing is, I have no idea where this distress is coming from. I’ve tried speaking with good friends about my situation and despite their best efforts to understand me, and no shade to them they are great, they just don’t give the greatest advice. It all leads back to how unnatural it is that I don’t desire sex.

I don’t have all the answers to life and I think my other problem is not knowing with 100% certainty if I’m asexual. I believe that I am…. but I don’t have the experience to know, you know? And I don’t know who to talk to or how much longer I can keep living this way. Anyway, I don’t want to fill this sub with negativity and don’t want to make anyone else feel miserable/uncomfortable with my vent so this will get deleted as well <3.