What do I do about a work coach I dislike?
My current work coach I have been seeing for quite some time now and it feels like every time I talk to them I feel worse as a person coming away from it. I understand their feedback and really do want to find work, yet they speak to me as if I am not human and worse than them, even asking me if I have some 'cash in hand' thing they don't know about. I've struggled with mental health in the past but never had any medical diagnosis for it since the only time I went to the hospital for it was during a transitional period where I couldn't be tested as an adult but it would take to long to be tested as a child, long story short they pretty much shrugged it off and I've not wanted to try get tested again.
Because of this I haven't put it in my journal or anything on the website that I have poor mental health, but every time I speak to my work coach I feel like it gets worse, ie thoughts of suicide and even self harm. I respect their feedback, but I really don't like my work coach and just wonder if there is a way to speak to someone else that is more understanding and kind. I just started the restart scheme and feel like they are much kinder, yet I still have weekly meetings with both and I am then also expected to show a large amount of applications that aren't done on easy sites when there also simply isn't even enough out there without indeed/simply hired etc...
Overall I am just losing my will to come in and do my tasks everyday cause my work coach treats me like I am not even human. Despite the fact I really want to work, especially so I don't have to see them ever again.