u/kankrikky

I'm 4'11, look young in the face because I'm fat, and dress in tshirts, hoodies, that I can't really help but get oversized because of my weight vs height. Holy shit, staff behave like I'm ready to shoplift the whole place because I'm not dolled up super fem and cutesy like a good little fat girl (I'm sure most of you know that to get respect as a fat woman, you should have a perfect hourglass, makeup, fashionable clothing, be as sexy and appealing as possible. Ugh 🙄).

I'm almost 30 and shop staff lock onto me, glare at me, 'subtly' follow me around because I dared to dress like anyone my age would when casually going to a shopping center. But because it's on me it looks like I'm a 'no good teenager'. I feel bad for actual teenagers who get treated like shit just for being outside. And I do my best to be friendly, I smile I say hello I wave! I even roll up my sleeves so it doesn't look like I'm nicking anything. Doesn't help much, especially if they see me before I see them!

I get a lot of shit for being short, fat and masculine, a lot of disrespect from condescending doctors mostly, but this one is just so frustrating. I hope it calms down once I finally start getting wrinkles, please just get off my back! I shouldn't have to over perform being a peppy friendly little girl just so I can go about my day.

I love and adore my group of sweaty basement dwellers who kick my big fat ass every single week, dunk my head in the toilet and rip up my character sheet. I'm soooo lucky that I get to buy the pizza too! AND clean the DM's house- he's says I'm the woman after all 😇

But lately it's been kind of a bummer (if that isn't too harsh!!!), so I think I can fix this whole thing if I ask them to kick my teeth instead. Will everything be okay then? I can't see any problems at all.

DON'T tell me to be a big boring grown up and take any responsibility in my own life, that's like soooo scawy. I can't leave because my boyfie's in the group and he thinks it's so funny, which is so silly of him hee hee. Don't say anything bad about him either! Actually, don't give me any advice at all. I'm so lucky The Boysssss let me hang out with them. Even though I'm miserable LOL.

Like, imagine if I stopped playing DND with them. Then my hubby might think I'm laaaaaaame and that'd be just awful. He's a really great guy and as you can tell, I'm a great judge of character. Please keep all your comments super gentle and start with "Oh hun, sweetie, poor thing" or else you can keep your rancid bully thoughts to yourself.

Thanks reddit!