i was sexually assaulted recently and just need someone to talk to
I am a trans man, i occasionally get on Grindr to secretly hookup with guys I struggle with my sexuality so only a couple of my friends know I’ve done things like that I only date women, but tonight I decided to get a hookup w someone after a year of not doing anything w guys due to being in a relationship and we had broken up, we had previously discussed what im into and expressed I did not want to do anal and when we started doing stuff he bent me over and started trying to do anal and forced it in and i just froze up I didn’t say anything idk how to feel about it and im feeling very guilty as if this is my fault bc i chose to meet a stranger and i don’t want to go to police bc i don’t want anyone knowing i do anything with guys it makes me extremely insecure.