Feel like I'm losing who my dad used to be
I (F20) was looking at old videos of my dad (M55) being silly and listening to music and enjoying all the stuff he used to enjoy and it made me very sad to realize that that version of him just doesn't exist anymore due to his disease.
My dad's CAG is 38 so he's in the grey area and is mostly coping with the mental part. (sadness, trouble sleeping, loss of energy etc). I'm not sure what i'm looking for in this subreddit but I just wanted to share what I currently feel like. I feel like I'm mourning someone who is still physically there and will very likely still be there for some time.
The thought of me possibly having it too goes around in my head quite often aswell but I don't feel ready at all to know if i'm positive or negative. I just wish there was some cure :(