Just Left an Abusive Polyamorous Relationship That I never wanted
So we go back to a year ago. My partner “A” asks me if we can open up our relationship of 5 years for someone they just met at work. I tell them I’m really not okay with that but they kept pushing and pushing and said “it would really hurt me if you say no to this”. So I gave in and let them open our relationship because I felt like I had no other choice…I regret not being more firm about my decision. Fast forward to the past couple of months. They are only taking this partner on dates and only buying food and things for them when I had no money of my own. I felt completely replaced and alone. They then asked me to have threesomes with them. I wasn’t okay with this but the environment “A” put me in felt like I had to say yes or they would spiral. They made me watch them and their other partner have sex in front of me while I was stoned out of my mind. This was very traumatic and I still have flashbacks to it. The flashbacks got so bad the other night that I overdosed on lithium pills. I finally reached a breaking point today and reached out to my family for help. And now I’m in a safe environment and not looking back.