A romantic who is hopeless
All i have ever wanted in this life is to be loved and to love. I have seemed to chase this feeling since i was born. I dont want a hook up or a basic relationship. Im talking a love story everyone talks about, a love story where it feels magical and fairytales and butterflies. A love story like the ones in books and movies, one that they write songs about. One that you feel with every part of your soul body and mind. Where your minds can telepathically communicate, your soul deeply connects and bodies passionately merge. One that is pure of societal views and opinions, and standards. It doesn’t make sense to anyone but you. A myth that will be talked about in a couple centuries later. (Okay maybe that’s an exaggeration). But one that isn’t just “oh i need a boyfriend because everyone around me has one” or an “oh she is hot let me try to hit”. And it feels like nowadays it’s kind of impossible to have that. Every person i talk to has a million walls i have to break to get through the real deal. It seems like everyone scared of being themselves, of being fragile or possible heartbreak in future that they don’t open up entirely.
Also , another thing. I feel like I want this love so badly that I think about it all the time. Which makes me question every person I meet like “Oh could this be my soulmate?” Which makes it less magical and genuine. I tried to let go and add hobbies into my life and added more hours at my job lol,to distract myself. But the idea doesn’t leave my mind.
What do you think? What would you do in my shoes?
(Please be kind, I’m sensitive to hate lol)