Having a hard time with my ADPhD (PhD with ADHD😁), looking for (unhinged) advice!
I'm exhausted and currently on sick leave, since the last couple of months I had a hard time (1st year PhD student).
I'm in a small institute with no peers to talk to, but I want to change things for myself, so I've read a lot on this sub about different approaches for structures that enable better self-organization and productivity during the PhD, as many approaches have been posted here (time-boxing, pomodoro, project management tools, etc.).
Unfortunately I have an ADHD-Brain that mostly responds to urgency and I have a hard applying these techniques in the long run, because my brain detests structure and routine, even though it helps me a lot, if I manage to stick to it.
I'm currently trying medication, but even though the meds helped me "perform" better, they eventually just pushed me further into Burnout, because I kept trying harder without working on the underlying structures to change my situation.
I was wondering if there are some fellow neurospicy people here with unhinged ideas on how to navigate this constant urge to create structure, just to abandon it after a short period of time.
Maybe someone here figured something out that does not fit the typical advice you commonly read?
Unfortonately I have a very absent advisor that does not give me structure at all, thats why I feel like I need to provide it completely for myself (which I'm not good at🥲).
After my sick leave, I'm planning on asking for more structure in the supervision as well, like milestones and regular meetings, but I'm ashamed of how little I got done in the last months and not sure about telling him about my diagnosis.
Sorry if this turned out as a chaotic read, my brain is foggy and I couldn't find better words.
I would love to hear from your experiences, thank you in advance! 😊