u/lahori4

I've been feeling so overwhelmed these past few days, and I've realized how badly I wish I had an elder sister.

I wish I had someone I could hug tightly whenever life feels too much. Someone I could be completely unfiltered with, someone who wouldn't mind me yapping for hours. Someone whose clothes and accessories I could borrow, and who'd probably borrow mine too.

I wish I had someone I could tell everything to, how heartbroken I feel when my parents argue, or when my brothers fight. Someone who would simply sit with me when I'm feeling low. Someone who'd be my company whenever I'm surrounded by strangers.

Someone who'd be my best friend for life.

I used to think maybe that's what a life partner is supposed to be, but I haven't really seen many marriages around me that feel like that. Maybe they exist, but I just haven't been lucky enough to witness them.

I wish I had an elder sister with whom I could laugh endlessly, argue over the most useless things, and ask dozens of questions, even the dumbest and most childish ones, without ever feeling embarrassed.

When I was younger, I did wish for an elder sister sometimes, but not this much. Now that I'm 20 and slowly seeing how life really is, I feel that missing piece more than ever. Being the middle child and the only sister among brothers can sometimes feel heavy.

Maybe that's why whenever I meet a younger girl who doesn't have a sister either, I naturally become protective of her. I spoil her, care for her, and love her as much as I can. I think I'm trying to give someone else what I wish I'd had.

I'm so grateful for all the friends and loved ones God has blessed me with. I count them among my biggest blessings. This isn't me being ungrateful.

I just sometimes wish I had a sister.

Does Highfy sell legit products?

I'm 20F and lately I've been feeling really stressed and insecure about my skin and appearance in general. I know this might sound dramatic but it's genuinely affecting my confidence now.

I have blackheads on my nose, occasional pimples (mostly around one cheek/jaw), pink acne marks, some back acne, strawberry arms, and a little hair on my neck/chin too. Recently my skin has also been feeling dry even though I use an oil-free moisturizer. I was using a salicylic acid face wash but it didn’t really clear my nose blackheads and just made my skin feel tighter/drier.

I also started taking Safi recently but progress feels super slow. What stresses me out more is that I actually DO try to take care of myself. I drink around 2.5L water daily, avoid fried foods most of the time, try to eat carefully, etc. The only thing is I do eat something sweet almost daily.

Last year I was kind of chubby, and I lost a lot of weight in around 2 months. When I came back to uni after summer, everyone kept saying I had a "glow up",and ever since then I've become super conscious about gaining weight again or getting acne.

Now I feel like I overthink every small pimple or mark. People around me joke that I'm "too conscious" about health and skin, but they don't understand that I genuinely fear becoming chubby again or developing worse acne.

Meanwhile I see people eating junk food and sweets all the time and still having perfect glowing skin somehow 😭

A few days before my period I got 3 tiny pimples on my cheek, and before that I had some near my jaw too, so maybe hormones are involved?

I just want to feel fit and toned, healthy, fresh/glowy and comfortable in my own skin again.

Has anyone else gone through this phase around my age?

What actually helped you mentally and physically with?