I feel so hopeless
My provider seems like he is going to be broke.
- I told him to find different ways to make money, but he said the economy is very bad and he can’t. (This is a third-world country and is literally on the edge of collapsing.)
- He can’t afford the things I want, and he keeps future-faking.
- He has a big business idea which is really nice and could earn him a lot of money, but because it is a broke, third-world country, customers likely won't buy it because every day everything is getting worse.
- Today he confessed to point number 3 and told me he feels hopeless. I asked him, 'Now what should we do? Cry?' He told me, 'he doesn't know' 'If people protest, the system would change' I told him 'Nothing will change , everything will get even worse.'
- Honestly, I feel like if he becomes homeless, he won't care at this point.
Now let's look at my situation:
- My country is even worse than his. There are no workplaces and no providers. It is an extremely poor country; most people cannot even afford basic meals. Many women are sex workers, and foreign men come to my country to use women’s bodies. It is very miserable. I came to his country for some hope, and now my hope is dying.
- I have no family, nobody, no money, no friends, and no home. I would probably have to be a sex worker which I really don't want to do, or I would have to work 12–14 hours with very little money that barely meets my basic needs.
Should I go back to my country, or should I stay, let him pay,(He pays for everything, I don't work ) wait? Honestly, I don't want to go back .I feel so hopeless.