I[21 F] didn’t feel anything first kiss with a guy, could it be I’m not attracted to men?
Idk if this is the right community to ask this in as it’s very much just a first step, but I thought there might be someone who can help. So I’m a bit of a avoidant and late bloomer and had my first kiss with a guy a few days before my 21st birthday, but I didn’t really feel anything from the kissing itself.
Like I did feel butterflies around him when he put his arm behind me and we were sitting down and later when we were kissing he did run his hand up my body, which also gave me an exciting feeling, but from the kiss itself it just felt like body parts touching you know?
I’ve now also later kissed a second guy and I felt very attracted to him and wanted to be around him, but again the kissing wasn’t exactly exciting either.
Has any other avoidance or late bloomers experienced something similar with their first kisses? Is it something that gets better with more experience or with someone you’ve build more of an emotional connection with? Or is it that I might not be into guys as I’ve always thought? I will say I was pretty nervous before both kisses, so I don’t know if that might have influenced my experience of it (which was tbh also very analytical as in I was thinking “am I doing this right or not” etc.).
I hope someone can share their experiences as that would be really helpful!