u/lavendertales

I was very careful emotionally and physically. Waited to observe for three weeks and he was consistent, engaging, ideal without fault.

After thr 1 month mark, the mas started falling off and he was no longer tha same person. It's over a month now and I do miss him but I am rationalizing things which leads me and helps me in moving forward.

When will dating get better for me?

Out of fear, I am preparing for a reason to lookback and thank the relationship even if it doesn't escalate to a lifetime affair.

Can't I just love blindly? Can you? Why do I have to put these measures in place just so I won't be devastated later on.

Oh well. I will try to enjoy the process and take things slow and chill. Any advice?