extreme hunger or binging?
MENTIONS OF DISORDERED EATING
i know i’ve been posting a bunch but i feel so confused with everything and it can’t hurt to ask for opinions lol.
i see a lot of posts about extreme hunger but i feel like i might just be binging? i’m not restricting afterward because im very familiar with the cycle and don’t want to fall into that. but today for example, here’s what i ate:
had a decent sized breakfast around 6:30 of eggs, potatoes, a bagel with cream cheese, berries. i felt full and went to work. i clean houses, and the first house had a bowl of chocolates out. it was around 9:30, about 3 hours after breakfast so i had 1, cause why not!? then, (throughout the workday) i had:
house 1
-2 lindor truffles
-2 reese’s cups
-4 mini hershey bars
-4 caramel filled pieces of dark chocolate
house 2
-3 lollipops
house 3
-2 david protein bars
-full sized hershey chocolate bar
and then on my way home (around 1:45pm)
-pumpkin cheesecake milkshake
-cream cheese filled pretzel
and when i got home (2:15ish)
-italian sub
-2 pure protein bars
-uncrustables
-2 pb and j sandwiches
-finished my tub of cool whip
yeah. and i could’ve eaten more but i felt so disgusted with myself. i’m feel like an eating machine and im on autopilot consuming everything in sight. why not like fruits or vegetables???! i even stopped at the gas station and ordered food knowing i wasn’t hungry and would feel gross afterwards ??? i truly think if i hadn’t had that first piece of chocolate this morning that none of this would’ve happened. i just feel kind of helpless and don’t know if this is extreme mental hunger or if im just binging like crazy. also started journaling to work my way through my feelings when this happens. i will see how that goes :) thank you!