u/laziokid

Hey everyone, my girlfriend and I have been together for
8 years now and things seem to have been getting worse over the years to the point where I feel like we’ve both practically given up at this point. I’ll admit that I’ve always had problems with being vulnerable and expressing myself with her, and anyone really for my entire life. I’ve built up so much resentment for her in the past couple of years that I don’t even want to speak to her at times while she’s always fighting for connection. My argument is always about finances and how she can’t control her spending but feel as if theirs a deeper meaning. We’ve both been going to therapy (she has several, and is a therapist herself - she’s been going to therapy for much much longer than I have) while I have my own therapist that I’ve been seeing for about a year now. I’ve always been an in/out type of person. I feel like every day is a struggle and find very little joy in my life these days which also puts a lot of stress on her. I need A LOT of alone time, abnormal amounts of it. I do love her and we have a great relationship for the most part, but lately it’s been really rocky and I feel like she’s putting out fires and finally getting fed up with my shit. I’m also so very easily irritated by everything she says and does. This conversation just happened and I just want to end things right here after this. I feel like I’m missing so much more information in a Reddit post but hoping to update things as I go.

I did try to post this in relationship_advice but they don’t allow image uploads for posts.

Also after I posted this, I asked her if she calmed down

EDIT: No this is not AI and is very real. I appreciate all of the comments and it’s a lot to process. I also know my “grilled cheese” was shitty, lol.
She has a sensitive stomach and usually takes digestive pills before eating something that she thinks will bother her however, she’ll sometimes have McDonald’s, fast foods, cheese, etc. (although not often). It was more of a gesture on my part to offer and I was not trying to “poison” her. I’m not disagreeing with any of your comments though, as I was super hijacked when this happened and I definitely play large negative role here.

Hi everyone, we have a propane fireplace table outside. I’m trying to start it for the first time again this year and it runs for about 5 seconds before making a tick sound and shutting off. The igniter has not worked for several years so I’ve had been manually lighting it for the past few years. The strange thing is now that I have to hold the lighter to the pilot / spark area and then turn it on for me to hear the gas and eventually light (for 5 seconds before shutting off). Any ideas what could be the cause of this or what I should try to replace?