Narc bf weird sexually
So he has a “hot wife” fetish. He claims he has it because he swears I cheat. (I never have) His ex told me about his fetlife and this fetish a few months before he started talking about to me about said fetish. He is lying about it starting with me. I’m not into having sex with other men. He wants this yet accuses me of cheating constantly. It dives me literally insane. He watches porn with women who “look like me” but can’t keep a boner for me. He actually will try to watch porn as we are having sex. He gets mad at me and tells me I’m ugly nasty boring etc. He likes other females pics on social media and I’m not allowed to be friends with him on social media and he won’t post our relationship even tho we’ve been together 2 years. He gets mad and blocks me everywhere. He posted pics and relationship status with all exes. He has a childhood female best friend he has fucked for years and refuses to block her and tells me he messages her when he gets mad at me. Sent me screenshots shots of it. Posted a nude of mine on fetlife without my consent and tries to push me into this kink that I’m totally not into. Also tries to get me to start an of and other porn creator accounts. He’s mentally and physically abusive and claims I am because I literally beg him to love me. I feel like a sick pathetic boring ugly loser. I have these crazy episodes I’ve never had before. I beg him to stay and love me even tho I want to be free. I don’t want to hate myself or place my value in his hands anymore. I want to love myself and be me again. I wish I had never met him.