u/leeguy911

Hello y’all, just wanted to share my current situation. I’m currently tapering and it’s going well. I also quit nicotine, which has been a huge step in the right direction.
One thing I don’t think gets talked about enough is what 7-OH can do to your libido. It can absolutely wreck it. It’s a strange feeling when you used to genuinely enjoy being intimate with your wife, and then one day you realize it barely even crosses your mind anymore. It’s not that you suddenly stop loving your spouse or stop finding them attractive. It’s more like that part of your life gets pushed onto a shelf and starts collecting dust without you even realizing it.
Because of that, I decided to get some blood work done. At 35 years old, my testosterone came back at 207. Two hundred and seven. I couldn’t believe it.
Thankfully, my doctor started me on a daily testosterone cream, and I’m hopeful things will improve from here. Everyone’s experience is different, but if you think heavy daily 7-OH use can’t eventually catch up to you, don’t be so sure. The higher the dose and the longer you stay on it, the greater the risk that side effects start showing up in ways you never expected.
I’m not posting this to scare anyone, just to share my experience and hopefully help someone else pay attention to the warning signs before they get there. I’m grateful my wife has been patient, understanding, and trusting of the process while I work through this. One day at a time.

I’m going to be brutally honest because maybe somebody out there needs to hear this before they end up where I am.

My wife is done with me. She’s filing for divorce and I can’t even sit here and blame her anymore. My entire world feels destroyed and the sick part is I watched it happen in slow motion while still choosing this garbage over fixing my life.

She knew about the 7 oh. She gave me chance after chance after chance. I promised her over and over I’d quit, swore I had it under control, swore things would get better, and every single time I failed. Eventually your words mean nothing when your actions never change.

The hardest thing to admit is what this stuff did to me as a husband. It killed my drive completely. Our marriage turned cold and distant while she was out improving herself, getting in shape, gaining confidence, looking beautiful again, and mentally moving forward in life while I stayed stuck in the same cycle every day. I stopped caring about intimacy, stopped caring about my health, stopped caring about being present. All I cared about was getting through the day and taking another tab.

Now I can feel how far gone she is emotionally. She doesn’t look at me with love anymore. She looks at me like someone she outgrew. And honestly I think she wants more out of life now. Excitement. Attention. Passion. A man that actually makes her feel wanted and alive instead of somebody numb and checked out all the time.

That realization destroys me because I know I caused it.
I’m a sucker. I’m stupid. I feel like even if I quit now it’s for nothing.