There is hope to heal <3
I wanted to share some positivity in this group -- because there was a time when I needed this subreddit to help assist in my healing journey -- now I'm much better. When I got discarded on January 27th, I felt so lost and needed answers (since they weren't coming from him). I leaned heavily on this group for support and answers.. what I came to realize is there are thousands of us who went through EXACTLY what I have. It made me feel seen and heard through my experience. I now feel like a "survivor" of avoidant emotional abuse.
Fast forward to now, May 21st. I feel relieved. I survived the storm. For anyone who is going through this now, please know there is light at the end of your pain. It's hard to believe because I didn't either. I was in so much pain, excruciating emotional pain, I thought I was going to live like that indefinitely. My nervous system was a complete wreck the first 5 weeks -- there were days I thought I had to go to the ER. But I pushed and fought my way out of the darkness. I moved with intent. I focused on myself, my well-being, my future that was so important to me.
I want you to know things will get better ONE DAY. maybe not today, next week or even next month... but do not ever give up.